An American robin in our crabapple tree this morning.
This morning when I got up, the temperature was -9 degrees F (-22 C). I was starting to feel a bit of winter discouragement, especially with another snow storm forecast for Sunday. But then a bit of hope dawn here at Havenwood...
"There are robins! Robins!!!" she shouted.
We all ran to look out the window to see six little fluffed out robins hoping around our tree.
Most of the colorful leaves of autumn have now fallen for the year, which is necessary of course in order for the earth to add all their nutrients to the soil once more. We were not hit hard in our area by hurricane Sandy, but we have had a constant rain. These photos are from a few weeks ago, when everything was still warmer and brighter.
Pink waterlily from Phipps Conservatory this summer.
Here is a great song that I have been listening to on the days when I am tired out from all of the demands of being a wife, mother and gardener... or even just tired out from reading my how-to garden journal post from the other day ;)
Perhaps you might need to hear this song today too?
One cold late-autumn day recently, I stayed inside to do the wife-task of ironing collared shirts for my husband, which I actually enjoy, sometimes. I like to put on music and make it a kind of meditative time; one of the few times that I allow myself to slow down and be reflective while still in my house full of kids & chores.
The pile has over a dozen shirts that I have saved up (and ignored) until I must do this task. I heat up the iron, turn on the music and let the Lord start to iron out the wrinkles in my heart.
I draw my curtains back so that I can look out onto the Shade Path while I work...
The song on loop is one of my new favorites, Matt Maher's song Garden because it is quiet - which I need while my two girls rest and my baby sleeps. It is also peaceful and reminds me of the Lord's presence with me...
And you walk with me
You never leave
You're making my heart a garden
As I start to relax, I begin to let down from my long day. Being the mother of three small children can be exhausting! I give and give, and try to give some more though part of me howls in resentment. I am worn from their needs and requests, but also from the battle within - with my own selfishness.
I am faced in this quiet moment with my shortcomings... all that I do not do... and all that I do, that I hate.
And I look out at that cold, almost frozen garden...
Everything green is dying down. What's left looks broken, brown, shabby...
on its way into the dormant season...
the cold, frozen, dead-looking season...
...Like my heart
looks and feels.
Our Shade Path is very near to the sidewalk and the road; our home situated on a fairly busy street. Many, many times in this fall planting season I have been out gardening in the cold afternoon, sometimes in the rain with water dripping down my hood, sometimes with fingers mostly frozen.
And they pass me by.
The cars driving home from work... the kids walking home from school. And I feel the weight of curious, incredulous eyes as they see me out there in that nasty weather. I think to myself, "They must think I am crazy."
And what am I doing? I am perfecting my garden.
That brown mess. Beloved mess. I am out there because I love it!
I love admiring what is there, even in this harsh season.
I am tweaking the beauty that will exist next year... moving seedlings... planting hundreds of bulbs.
The beauty is hidden, dormant; it cannot be seen by normal vision right now.
Only through faith can I see it already full of flowers... new growth... new color combinations... new heights of beauty.
And you walk with me
You never leave
You're making my heart a garden
...the chorus sings on and I am suddenly struck: I am a garden!
I am brown and broken, yet loved by my Gardener.
He tends me in the most caring way,
looking happily at the new growth here and shuffling more bulbs there...
and He is making my heart beautiful.
Like me, He is an all-weather gardener... enjoying me right where I am,
and patiently working into me the beauty that is to come.
Do you know what it is to be loved, even when you are unlovable?
God demonstrates his own love for us in this:While we were still sinners, Christ died for us. ~Romans 5:8
~~~
A video worth watching for its amazing BBC botanical time-lapse footage,
At the beginning of October, our garden was one of the stops for Nashville singer/songwriter Eric Peters on his Under the Radar concert tour. We enjoyed meeting Eric for the first time back in May. (Go here to see one of his songs featured on WMG.)
Friends seated around our small backyard for an afternoon of music.
Our patio did a great job disguising itself as a stage for this event.
Some fall cookies & cider for extra cheer.
Music for the finches and nuthatches to dine to.
Thanks to Eric and Sam Smith from the Rabbit Room for making the trip up to PA to share a Saturday with us! Oh, and for appreciating the garden tour! (You do not think I would let them get away without that, do you?!)
Next up on the Gilmore Cultural Series: "Doe a deer, a female deer" performed by Anna, my dynamic three-year-old. Inspired by her first viewing of The Sound of Music.
The blood of Jesus, it is like the widow's oil:
it's enough to pay the price to set you free.
It can fill up every jar and every heart that ever beat.
When it's all you have it's all you'll ever need.
The blood of Jesus,
it is like the leper's river running humble
with a power you cannot see.
Seven times go under,
let the water wash you clean.
Only go down to the Jordan and believe.
Only go down in the Jordan and believe.
And I need it, I need it.
The closer that I grow,
the more I come to know how much I need it.
The blood of Jesus it is like Elijah's fire,
falling on the altar of your faith.
All the wisdom of the world could never conjure up a spark,
But no power of Hell could ever quench this flame.
No power of Hell could ever touch this flame.
And I need it, I need it.
The closer that I grow,
the more I come to know how much I need the blood of Jesus.
The blood of Jesus, it is like the widow's oil:
when it's all you have it's all you'll ever need. It is all you'll ever need.
~~~
Today this is especially for
Sarah, humble and persevering mother to five;
Jen, courageous mommy to three (one being a baby cancer survivor);
and Emily as she flies her way to Africa today to bring home two more.
A song of redemption by Eric Peters that has been soaking in this week during my times of weakness...
We had the opportunity to hear Eric live this past week, since he made the long trip to PA. We really enjoyed hearing all of his music... a real poet struggling and seeing grace in the everyday moments of life.
for the most important seed that ever fell into the earth...
that is still producing a greater harvest than any the world has ever known.
Matt Maher's song Christ is Risen
Jesus replied, “The hour has come for the Son of Man to be glorified. Very truly I tell you, unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a single seed. But if it dies, it produces many seeds. ~ John 12:23-24
As I have braved the cold, wet and windy climate this week to spend some time in my garden, I was reminded of an article that I wrote in early winter last year. Parts of my garden are now looking nice and green already, and parts are still holding on to the hope of renewal... and that is what I am holding on to today for my own heart.
re-post from Dec 2010: One cold late-autumn day,I stay inside to do the wife-task of ironing collared shirts for my husband... which I actually enjoy, sometimes, when I can put on music and make it a kind of meditative, worship time... one of the few times that I allow myself to slow down and be reflective while still in my house full of chores.
The pile has over a dozen shirts that I have saved up (or maybe ignored) until I must do this task.
I heat up the iron, turn on the music and let the Lord start to iron out the wrinkles in my heart...
I draw my curtains back so that I can look out onto the Shade Path while I work...
The song on loop is one of my new favorites, Matt Maher's "Garden"... it is quiet (which I need while my two toddlers and one baby sleep), peaceful, and reminds me of the Lord's presence with me...
And you walk with me
You never leave
You're making my heart a garden
As I start to relax, I begin to let down from my long day. Being the mother of three small children can be exhausting! I give and give, and try to give more though my flesh is howling in resentment. I am worn from their needs and requests, but also from the battle with my own selfishness.
I am faced in this quiet moment with my sinfulness... the mess that is my life... all that I do not do...
and all that I do, that I hate...
And I look out at that cold, almost frosted garden...
Everything green is dying down...
what's left looks broken, brown, shabby...
on its way intothedormantseason...
the cold, frozen, dead-looking season...
...Like my heart
looks and feels.
Our Shade Path is very near to the sidewalk and the road, and our home is situated on a fairly busy street headed into the downtown area. Many, many times in this fall planting season I have been out gardening in the cold afternoon... sometimes in the rain with water dripping down my hood... sometimes with fingers mostly frozen.
And they pass me by.
The cars... the kids walking home from school. And I feel the weight of curious, unbelieving eyes as they see me out there in that nasty weather.
I think to myself, "They must think I am crazy."
And what am I doing? I am perfecting my garden.
That brown mess. Beloved mess. Truly, I am out there because I love it!
I love admiring what is there, even in this harsh season.
I am tweaking the beauty that will exist next year... moving seedlings... planting hundreds of bulbs...
The beauty is hidden, dormant... cannot be seen by normal vision right now.
Only through eyes of faith can I see it already full of flowers...
new growth... new color combinations... new heights of beauty.
And you walk with me
You never leave
You're making my heart a garden
...the chorus sings on and I am suddenly struck:I am a garden!
I am brown and broken, yet loved by my Gardener.
He tends me in the most caring way...
looking happily at the new growth here and shuffling more bulbs there...
and He is making my heart beautiful.
Like me, He is an all-weather gardener...
enjoying me right where I am,
and patiently working into me the beauty that is to come.
One cold late-autumn day, I stay inside to do the wife-task of ironing collared shirts for my husband... which I actually enjoy, sometimes, when I can put on music and make it a kind of meditative, worship time... one of the few times that I allow myself to slow down and be reflective while still in my house full of chores.
The pile has over a dozen shirts that I have saved up (or maybe ignored) until I must do this task.
I heat up the iron, turn on the music and let the Lord start to iron out the wrinkles in my heart...
I draw my curtains back so that I can look out onto the Shade Path while I work...
The song on loop is one of my new favorites, Matt Maher's "Garden"... it is quiet (which I need while my two toddlers and one baby sleep), peaceful, and reminds me of the Lord's presence with me...
And you walk with me
You never leave
You're making my heart a garden
As I start to relax, I begin to let down from my long day. Being the mother of three small children can be exhausting! I give, and give, and try to give more though my flesh is howling in resentment. I am worn from their needs and requests, but also from the battle with my own selfishness.
I am faced in this quiet moment with my sinfulness... the mess that is my life... all that I do not do...
and all that I do, that I hate...
And I look out at that cold, almost frosted garden...
Everything green is dying down...
what's left looks broken, brown, shabby...
on its way intothe dormant season...
the cold, frozen, dead-looking season...
...Like my heart
looks and feels.
Our Shade Path is very near to the sidewalk and the road, and our home is situated on a fairly busy street headed into the downtown area. Many, many times in this fall planting season I have been out gardening in the cold afternoon... sometimes in the rain with water dripping down my hood... sometimes with fingers mostly frozen.
And they pass me by.
The cars... the kids walking home from school. And I feel the weight of curious, unbelieving eyes as they see me out there in that nasty weather.
I think to myself, "They must think I am crazy."
And what am I doing? I am perfecting my garden.
That brown mess. Beloved mess. Truly, I am out there because I love it!
I love admiring what is there, even in this harsh season.
I am tweaking the beauty that will exist next year... moving seedlings... planting hundreds of bulbs...
The beauty is hidden, dormant... cannot be seen by normal vision right now.
Only through eyes of faith can I see it already full of flowers...
new growth... new color combinations... new heights of beauty.
And you walk with me
You never leave
You're making my heart a garden
...the chorus sings on and I am suddenly struck: I am a garden!
I am brown and broken, yet loved by my Gardener.
He tends me in the most caring way...
looking happily at the new growth here and shuffling more bulbs there...
and He is making my heart beautiful.
Like me, He is an all-weather gardener...
enjoying me right where I am,
and patiently working into me the beauty that is to come.
...fantastic song about persevering in loving your husband/wife and the joy found there... has played on repeat in our home many mornings after a night of difficult "discussions"...
...this song has reminded me yet again of the Father's great love for us... of his relentless pursuit of our hearts and of my call to love my children like He loves me...